Being truly, properly, authentic
I have a confession to make. I’ve been feeling a little at odds with this blog for a while now: there’s been something niggling away that I just haven’t been able to put my finger on. So, I’ve been taking some time to work out why things haven’t been feeling quite right and how I can shift things to feel properly aligned with my whole self. Because I don’t want to just shout into the abyss or follow a formula that’s worked for someone else and give you safe stuff that’s already been done before. I want to serve you in a way that’s missing elsewhere: because no one else has what I do – me.
As exciting as the first signs of the approaching spring are for all of us, the truth is that there’s a lot of intensive work going on under the surface that we can’t see. Looking back over my own journey, I confess, I don’t think I’ve been as transparent about the growing pains as I could have been.
At the moment I’m finding myself feeling a little stuck with Can Eat Attitude as, like my previous blog “it’s a wonderful life” where I shared ridiculous life observations, I’ve ended up confining what I talk about to a defined set of terms. The truth is, this whole food piece is just one element of my journey to being my fullest and fiercest self and coming to completely inhabit my mind and body. Can Eat Attitude evolved from the blog I had previously where I tried to make light of ridiculous scenarios I found myself in – such as smashing the rear window in my own car by reversing into a dustbin! I still had that wry outlook on things and am a bit of a joker in general but when I found my feet with my Coeliac Disease I realised I wanted to share what I’d learned with other people, to try and help them to have a more positive outlook on this life changing experience. And as I’ve grown into my own Can Eat Attitude, I’ve expanded and outgrown some of the safer stuff that it was easy to talk about but haven’t felt that my other passions fitted nicely into the “Can Eat Attitude” approach. I’m not 100% clear on what this next metamorphosis is going to look like, but I can tell you that there will be a whole lot more truth telling, frankness and COLOUR. I hope you’ll stay with me on this journey and I’m so grateful to YOU for the part you’ve played so far.
Being my truest, most authentic self has meant have to let go of a lot of things, which even as a master of change, I’ve still found really tricky: letting go of my fear around showing the messier side of my work, focusing on who I am and what it is I am here to share.
It’s also meant embracing the idea of celebrating my own magic – and that one is a BIGGIE! Even the words above “because no one else has what I do – me.” feel a bit icky to say out loud. Because society is so quick to stamp on anyone “blowing their own trumpet” or “bragging” about their best qualities: especially women who are supposed to be “modest” (YUCK!) We can easier accept labels attributed to us by others than explain who we are, at our cores. How can you be authentic if you’re in a state of identity confusion? And I’ve been asked “so, what do you do” so many times over the past couple of years that this has been a pretty big deal for me. Because I know that people are effectively looking for a couple of words or a title that sums me up. This labelling isn’t enough for me – and it shouldn’t be enough for you either!
During my wanderings and wonderings, I handily came across this wonderful blog post from my friend Hayley Richardson. Usually I wouldn’t go in for the whole “brand value” thing as I don’t really see this gig as a “brand” in that sense and am (truth be told) a little squeamish about the word “business” (it feels far too corporate and starchy for this work) but I know Hayley pretty well and her approach is always heartfelt so I trusted that what she was sharing was likely to resonate with me. And I’m so glad I did because I found this brand archetype test from Cerries Mooney which blew my mind a little bit. Even if you don’t have a “business” of your own right now but you feel a burning desire to bring something into the world, I recommend giving this test a go and sitting with the insights it provides.
There’s an additional piece to this test whereby you get your secondary archetype so that you can look at your “archetypal blend” and mine was pretty much a smack between the eyes “oh crikey – I’ve always known that – what have I been DOING?” moment. In case you’re interested, I came out as an Explorer (Primary) / Creator (Secondary) which summed up means that my skull is regularly so full of ideas that my brain “sometimes feels like the contents of a nutribullet” (Cerries’ words, not mine, but beautifully put) and I am overwhelmingly non conformist.
This is a visual representation of my blend that I’ve put together, I’d love to know if this or any of the feelings I’ve shared above resonate with you – please do pop a comment below!